different stages

we were talking about a animation today. the main storyline is the characters will lose something equivalent to what they wish for. would you want to make a wish then? furthermore, a short conversation with DA BAI today made me think about the gains and losses in life.

the most obvious one will be the friends. i have lost some friends, some unknowingly but some with a reason. when i look back and think, i definitely miss the times we used to have together. the word "used-to" explains everything! they belong to the history and it is pointless to hold on to the past. just move on with life! i will be equally happy just to know that i used to be part of their lives. since there are fresh tomatoes, there are definitely rotten ones. friends who i dont wish to be reminded of. i am somehow similar to my brother's style of making friends. what we want most in our friends is trust. in all relationships, i seriously believe that it is the basic building block. with no trust, how do you expect me to confide in you? you will just be a stranger who i used to know. so, dont think about them because they will just make my blood boils. move on with life and meet new faces now! they are a group of fun-loving and loves-good-food people. let's go food hunting again!!!

relationship with my family has changed too. i used to hug my mother and cry in her arms when i was sad. now, i will hide in my room and swallow my tears down my throat. i was afraid of my father because he played the disciplinary role at home. he would scold me till i teared for the slightest mistake. but now, i discuss big decisions with him and have simple conversations with him. i played a lot with my brother but we seem to have distance ourselves from each other as we grow older. i guess the only thing that does not change is my relationship with my sisterm, except that she is married now. i am very thankful to have her as my sister. she taught me in one way or another to be the person i am today. thanks! (doubt she will ever read this)

we were watching this movie today and there was this line that said it is during high school when you learn how to handle break ups. boy meets girl, girl meets boy. boy likes girl and girl likes boy. what a perfect picture but i still do not believe in BGR love, specificially, first love and love at first sight. how many actually settle down and start a family with their first love? some use the word "foolish" or "silly" to describe it. witnessing couples coming together and after a few months or at least a few years, they are going on their separate ways. it makes me think how strong love can be? i may have lost someone i have loved but at least i have learnt something. not to punge too deep into relationships? but one thing for sure is i will know who are my true friends because true friends will be there during my toughest period.

forget about the losses. let them be part of my memory and please, remember the good times. next will be to move on with life!